I was fascinated by the Charlie Sheen tales for approximately three days. I contemplated following him on Twitter. But then I heard that he doesn’t even manage his own Twitter. And then I heard that he posted a job opening to replace one of his strippers – I mean goddesses. Gross. And now he’s going on tour?? Fascination … over.

Charlie Sheen may be out of my life but this #WINNING theme has been more present than ever. With March Madness upon us, everyone is obsessed with winning. I am not a big sports fan and never have been. My favorite part of watching sports growing up? The interviews and stories of the players and coaches. I love me a good “rags to riches” or underdog story. And a good cry.

Last Thursday, I went to a Step Up Women’s Network Breakfast and Drucker Business Forum with Peter Guber, the CEO and Chairman of Mandalay Entertainment Group (you can read more about his impressive career here). The discussion focused on his latest book “Tell To Win: Connect, Persuade, and Triumph with the Hidden Power of Story”.  He explained that we have always been wired to tell stories and connect to eachother in that way. “Emotionally transporting” your audience can often lead to the support you are trying to gain. Of course he then told success stories (e.g. convincing Castro to let him film in his waters by telling him a shark story). “If you can’t tell it, you can’t sell it.” The subject is simple yet so easy to forget.

So I’m rooting for Butler University this week (my cousin Ashley went there so it’s not JUST because they are the underdog again). And if I actually hear a story of how Charlie Sheen is being authentic, then maybe I’ll root for him too. Either that or if he has a comeback story after he goes to rehab again.

I have to add that I also just saw a movie called “Win Win” (Paul Giamatti, Amy Ryan) and highly recommend seeing it. It’ll make you smile, maybe cry, and laugh a lot. Awesome cast/characters. And of course … great story.



After a few weeks of adjusting to this work thing again, I’m back at the blog. Sorry for the delay (because I know you all are soooo sad when there isn’t a new post).

It’s been … challenging. I’m an Account Executive at Velocity Marketing now. We do all sorts of marketing and advertising for Chevy dealerships. It’s busy. Really, really busy. And it’s all new for me and there is A LOT to learn. Starting a new job is stressful. So many expectations. I don’t want to disappoint anyone. I don’t want to screw up. Which really translates to me striving to be perfect. And beating myself up when I’m not.

Not only did I start at Velocity recently, I also worked as a server for the first time for Along Came Mary, an event production company, last Saturday. I haven’t been a server since college and I’ve never done it for an event. Especially not for such a high profile event like this. It was A Happening to Raise Money for the Museum of Contemporary Art in Los Angeles. Just a little nerve racking. Remember Aunt Becky from Full House? She was at my table. Beck performed. Will Ferrell was there. Gwen and Gavin (they just might be the perfect couple). Among the mega rich also included Rachel Zoe, Rachel Bilson, Chloe Sevigny and Mila Kunis …which leads me back to the Black Swan trailer I posted (starring Mila and Natalie Portman).

It hasn’t been all work over the last few weeks. We’ve seen shows at the Hollywood Improv. Some good (Craig Robinson, John Dore Nick Kroll). Some bad (Kato Kaelin, yes, really, Kato Kaelin). We’ve also seen a lot of free movie screenings through the Producers Guild of America. My favorites include Winter’s Bone, Blue Valentine, Fair Game and definitely Black Swan. (Go see all of them!)

Black Swan is trippy, thrilling, disturbing, sexy and beautiful all at the same time. The producers did a Q & A after and explained that Natalie Portman did ballet training on her own dime for a year before filming. It paid off. Her performance is, dare I say, near perfect. I normally don’t love dark thrillers but I kind of related to this one. Don’t worry, I’m not crazy. I’m not a lot of things that are in this film, but I do get in my own way like Nina does to herself in her obsession with perfection. I’ll stop there to not give anything away.

I made mistakes serving. I also made mistakes at my new job. I’ve been angry with myself, but continuing to be angry is just going to get in my way. The only thing I can do is learn from my mistakes and not make them again. And remind myself that practice makes “perfect.” Natalie didn’t just wake up and film an amazing performance as a ballerina. She practiced over and over for a year.

And for all of those perfect looking celebrities at the gala … well, that’s just thousands of dollars worth of personal stylists. And plastic surgery.

Stress Dreams

I know that Amy Poehler’s monologue from the 36th season premiere of SNL was scripted, but a part of me hopes that there was some truth to it. Was Amy Poehler actually nervous about hosting SNL? Did she really have stress dreams before shows? When I was working, every now and then I would have stress dreams about meetings or deadlines. I hated those. Made me wonder how I would ever succeed when not only was I worrying awake, I was worrying in my sleep. (Highlight to being unemployed: No stress dreams! Although I’m starting to stress about being unemployed, so I probably just jinxed myself).

I often forget that celebrities are humans. Actually, I often forget that any successful person I admire is human and therefore capable of making mistakes. Last Thursday, I went to a Step Up Women’s Network panel called “A View From the Top: The Future Wears Heels” (see event photos and read The Huffington Post’s recap here). The moderator was Willow Bay, senior editor, The Huffington Post, and panelists included Michelle Kydd Lee, executive director, CAA Foundation; Gina McLeod, principle, Deloitte Tax LLP. & West Coast president and national dean, WIN; Natalie Pace, author of You Vs. Wall Street, founder & CEO, Women’s Investment Network, LLC; and Laura Allison Wasser, attorney, Wasser, Cooperman & Carte. All incredibly successful women at the top of their careers. They had great insight and advice (e.g., take risks(!), think big, be self aware, be yourself), but what I found most refreshing was their honesty and humor. They were open about divorce, therapy, motherhood and mistakes, and joked while talking about it. I’m guessing if they were asked about stress dreams, they would’ve all had some funny stories.

So maybe Amy Poehler wasn’t actually nervous, but I’m sure she was at some point like the four newbies on the show. I’m afraid stress dreams are inevitable in my future, but maybe I can begin to think of them as sketches and laugh about it. And if the same guest stars from Amy’s dream appear in mine … even better.